Ok, so I know this guy - I got to know him through people I used to work with who moved to another bar - they worked with him, and we got to chatting and such... we have similar tastes in music, dress etc. I got to liking him quite a lot - he invited me to go to a gig with him and stuff [which I couldn't go to], and saw him at a Christmas punk gig thing in 2008. A few months later I saw him out at Corp, and something just clicked - we went home together and though nothing serious happened I had the best time. We chatted for ages, banter and deep and meaningfuls... a few days later he came over again for some guitar hero and some beers...
Then I didn't hear from him again... for months and months, just nothing.
A few weeks ago I get a message (probably drunken) on fb. He asks for my number again, and comments on my newly dark hair, saying it looks nice... I've had constant texts off him since. Asking me over, and just chatty stuff. All this completely out of the blue. I've told him that I'm not up for being his plaything again, and questioning his motives, but he brushed it off. He's being all flirty. I don't know what to do.
I still like this boy. Ok, he's shorter than maybe I'd ideally go for, but he's cute, and funny and we have so much in common. He's also an incurable flirt. Bah.
Maybe just leave that one then... lol.
I'm just hating being single at the moment - though don't want to rush into anything. I had an incident over the summer - meeting up with this guy that I hadn't seen since high school and falling totally for him. Really thought he felt the same way, and we started dating and it was lovely.. .I mean I was soooo happy. Happier than I've been in years. That ended when I came back to Sheffield, though I didn't want it to. I was crushed. I thought what we had was special enough to at least give it a go.
I want that feeling again. I don't like being single. I don't like not having someone to cuddle up to at night, and so now I'm making ridiculous choices - seeing Dan of the pee-pee fame, considering dating a boy I know is no good, going out and kissing 19 year old flaky boys that I only met hours before. I know that what I'm doing at the moment is not the way to meet nice boys, the type of boys that would want something beyond a one night stand. But it's hard being at uni and meeting the nice ones - especially for me, I mean I'm a good 4-5 years older than the boys I go to uni with... and that might seem like nothing, and I guess as you get older age gaps mean less and less. But seriously. 19 year old guys are looking for completely different things. And [as pee-pee Dan showed] apt to throw tantrums if things don't go their way.
I want someone that will make me cups of tea when I've had a bad day, that will give me back tickles, that will be nice to me when I have a hangover/period pains/am feeling low. I want someone I can cook nice meals for, and go on nice dates with, and dress up pretty for. That gives me butterflies when I know I'm going to see them, that rings me for no reason, and sends me pretty texts telling me they care. I want to meet someone that I think will last beyond uni.
Time out on dating for me I think.
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